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Hope
by Langston Hughes
he rose up on his dying bed
and asked for fish.
his wife looked it up in her dream book
and played it.

homebody

"i feel happy when i'm on my bed, in my room with a good book." - Françoise Hardy

all rainbows and smiles

the wedding of Paul McCartney and Linda Eastman
the wedding of Roman Polanksi and Sharon Tate
i have four recent obsessions: the Zodiac serial killer, the concept of a Manic Pixie Dream Girl stock character (scan from my visual diary to come soon), conflicted heroes, and weddings. 
my love for weddings has never really come from a desire to be married or in a serious relationship but just to have a day where i have an excuse to throw a really great party and wear lovely clothes so that all my invited friends and family can spend the duration of a two hour reception celebrating what a wonderful person i am. then, me, myself, and i would happily jump onto an airplane for a relaxing honeymoon for one.
if you're wondering where the videos of the above weddings come in, it's my interest in conflicted heroes. the husbands in both cases have or eventually will have their name tarnished over the years - by racism or sexual perversion - but on their wedding day, with their newly wedded wives looking at them longingly, can we forgive them? can all the other good they've done allow us to ignore the bad stuff? can this work with mere mortals? can it work with me?
(a playlist i made dedicated to late night driving)